Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Does it count if the fruit/veggie portion of my lunch is salsa?

You bet it does. That means I'm eating.

You see, that's one of the things about being here at home. Some days, most days, I'm just pulled in so many different directions that I forget what it is I'm supposed to be doing. Like feeding myself.
Most days I feel like I didn't get anything done at all.
Some days I spend forever doing a simple thing like changing the look of this blog, and suddenly it's 2pm. The kids have been fed etc and are napping, but what happened to me in all of that?
I'll tell you what happened. I'm still in my jammy pants. That's what happened.

I'm sure most moms are like this. I have the kids, the house, the laundry, the food, editing, cleftadvocate, soggy granola, the birth defects board at babycenter, real physical people here in town, the list goes on and on and I really should have cleaned the carpets this weekend but the carpet machine is sitting by the ironing board in the kitchen right where it's been sitting all week.

And none of it (aside from making sure everyone is fed and reasonably sanitary) is VITAL. It's all just... stuff. The stuff I do. The bits and pieces of things that make up what I've ended up doing with my life. It will get done, eventually, and until then...

Sometimes I think that I should be one of those people who has the sparkling house. Everything has a place and everything in it. But then would I take a whole day to make a blog prettier because I wanted to? Would I go edit fanfiction for people that I don't actually know in real life because it helps both of us learn in the process? Would I pop in on a forum several times a day just to see what's going on?

I think I'd be lonely.

And so here I am. Pulled in however many directions, but getting some of it done. Sometimes.

5 comments:

Good Remedy said...

Love the new look. Glad you took the time. Sometimes I wonder where that line is between "sparkly clean" and "sane". I would love for my house to be in order, but I think I'd go nuts trying to keep it that way. Somewhere in between is living. Glad to know I'm not alone :-)

Jaclyn Bailey said...

I agree with Good Remedy! Somewhere in between is living!

And I love the softened yarn background!

Fannie said...

My house looked like crap until my kids left home. Just couldn't do it all. I felt guilty about it, but that didn't help. Keeping yourself sane comes first, I say.

Grumpy said...

love the new look.

Oh to heck with the house! LOL! I had a visitor show up at the door, unannounced this morning - we were dressed... but my house looked like a nuclear blasting zone happened. That's what happens when you are up all night with a kid .... homeschool (ha I lie we hadn't even started that today yet!)

I only eat, cause I have to .... and figure if the kids are eating... heck I should too! Balanced meals... ha that's a laugh... but we try!

Rachel said...

i told you to move close to me and then you could have best of both worlds- i would come hang out AND clean your house- you know i have a problem!! in fact- i need to go steam mop the kitchen now while the kids are playing barbies so sweet- take advantage while i can!